Tag: LIFE

THE WRONG RISK OR THE WRONG TIME

When is the last time you took a risk? How did it work out?

Well now, the last time I took a big risk was a long while ago. I am sure I have taken several small risks since. But we will talk about the big risk. The wrong risk I took for a project my mind forced me to do; having the same horrendous nightmare. This drove me to write about the dream in order for them to stop entering my sleep.

The risk goes like this. I was in the process of writing this story that came to my head out of the blue. Not really, I continued to have these horrendous nightmares keeping me underground; working. I did however escape, only to be caught and brought back to work. That’s when I seen I was not, the only human being forced to work, but, the crazy thing about being down there working, was, I was never allowed to leave my bream knowing what I was working at?

The name of my story, BUZZER

After locking myself in the work room for four months, words flew from my mind to the computer non stop until a wall of questions bombarded my thoughts. This blockage caused me to take the next step leaving the wall creating symbols to spell out words; an alien language. An actual dictionary took form.

Once the language was set, the only place for me to go was back to my barricade. Oh bother.

I’m sure we all know, they tell us, “we cannot write something we don’t know anything about.” They tell us, “readers are smart. They ask questions.” So, I needed to learn about the next step to be able to carry on with my story.

I know, you are probably wondering where am I going with this. What could possibly be anything that important, for me to go out and take a big risk writing a story? What kind of a story is this risk taker blabbing about that went horribly wrong.

I will tell you what kind of a risk. Sack man. An Arrest. I came upon a part in my story where an arrest had to be written about. Shh. That I am called a goody two shoe person, how could I possibly write an arrest?

I have not witnessed an arrest, I have not been arrested, I did not know anybody who has been arrested. So, I needed to find out right?

😶

Okay, to make a long story short, the jest of it was, I went out to escape someone. Mother.

I went to a bar, had three beers and a shot of black Sambuca to end the night. On the way home I was HIT with an epiphany … 🤩 I will ask the police officer I seen sitting across the street where I had my drink; something told me he was coming for me, especially the way he stormed off in the other direction; one way street. It had to be for me?

Okay, all I had to do was drive maybe twenty feet, turn the corner and I would be home. But that EPIPHANY told me to stop and wait!

Well the rest is history. I was not able to ask him anything. He took me down town in handcuffs; oh the pain. Telling me the “officer in charge wanted to see me.” ???!

That was the most wrongful risk ever taken by me and possibly the last. Still remains the question.

Was it the wrong risk or the wrong time.

Lmao. 🤣 actually it was not funny at all. Did I write the arrest into my story? No!!! I chose a totally different path for that part of the book.

Down with Epiphany’s

The End.

RISK TAKERS

Describe a risk you took that you do not regret.

Very many years ago I took several risks without thinking about “the risks”. Just some times, there is no time to think just act.

I tore a burning shirt off a baby with my bare hands without thinking and burned both my hands. At the time I was the age of nine. Could have been eight, but the only thing in my mind was the shirt have to get off the burning baby. One time I stood in front of my siblings to take the beating first, boys oh boy, hoping to tire out our mother, fat chance there. I was the age of 10 or 11 at that time. She never got tired. One time I jumped off a bridge to save a kid, I was a kid myself. Never gave one thought of the undertow or how fast the river was moving, just jumped. I believe my age was 13, where I didn’t do much thinking of risks at all. My intent was on a one way track, just do it and get to the boy fast before he drowns.

When I was young I had this crazy notion of saving people without a thought in my head except to rescue them.

I thought about the risk of taking my older sister’s clothes 🤔 , 🤷‍♀️ and wore her new velvet pants, I don’t regret it. At 15, I couldn’t care less. lol. The pants were beautiful and my sister was not home. I figured she would never know and didn’t give it another thought.

I’m sure I took plenty of risks without regret, in my mind, I had good enough reasons to do the things I did before doing them, never thinking about the consequences, 😉 to this day I do not regret any of them.

I was a risk taker. 😏

WHAT DID YOU SAY

What’s something most people don’t understand?

Each other. This is the first thing popping into my mind after reading the question.

I know it’s a silly answer, but there happen to be very many people I’m sure you have come across saying to you, “ I don’t know what you mean. Or I don’t know what you’re talking about. Actually I have heard some people say, you’re making no sense at all. I never understand you.

Yet, you have no trouble talking to anyone else. So, when you ask what’s something most people don’t understand, my answer is each other.

CHANGE WHAT IS CHANGE

What is change.

Can it be the lose coins in your pocket? People call lose change in their pockets change. Why. Why are the coins in your pocket or purse called change? Or; would you like your change sir? Or; don’t forget your change.

I give you my twenty dollar bill to pay for my sixteen dollar shirt in exchange for the shirt and what change is left from the bill.

We don’t get two dollar or one dollar bills any more; they changed that, by taking the paper money away creating coins worth a two and one dollar bill. But then they changed the paper money all together, giving us plastic; it melts in the blazing heat of the sun, should you leave your plastic money on the dash of the inside of your car, truck. This is not fair change; money that melts. But, either way . . .paper money burns

But what about the residue? Bahahaha . . .Residue you may ask? Where does this residue come into play? Well, I do not know myself, because I do not snort stuff up my nose with the use of rolled up bill money. Is there a change in how the powder flows up through the plastic rather paper? Does the powder coat the paper bills and not the plastic? Could this be the reason for the change; paper to plastic? Just a thought as I type about change and what it may mean to some people? And don’t ask why this came to me, it just came. <<<>>>This is a CHANGE IN MY THOUGHT PATTERNS.

WHAT IS CHANGE? How about this . . .We change our minds. We change our clothes. We change the curtains hanging there after a period of time for something different. Change is anything different.

So, change is two different things, coin left over from a money bill and . . .doing anything different.

Below a few changes.

JOINT EASE BONES NOT MARIJUANA

Yes, joint pain in your hands not your favourite Acapulco gold marijuana stuff? But for all I know it may help as well.

But I have rheumatoid arthritis, actually they diagnosed me with that in my late teens. However, that I am running into my seventies, my pain generally overwhelms me with the dampness. For sure it’s a weather condition.

I tell people I’m allergic to the cold when they ask are you allergic to anything, yes the cold they giggle, thinking I’m being funny, it’s not funny-the cold super hurts-hurts my skin, hurts my bones!

One could say I’m allergic to the cold and dampness because it hurts like hell.

So here’s my story.

I was always taking some form of Gluten Sulphate, then getting tired of taking pills I quit for many years and taking the pain.

But then comes a day when the pills are necessary and you take them whether you like them or not. But then I started to take just recently, vitamin D a drop a day and I did this for quite a while still taking magnesium and glucosamine sulphate, with no pain at all, yay!

So I stopped taking the magnesium and glucosamine sulphate believing all I needed were the drops 😁. Yippee, pill free for a month!

UNTIL 😳🫣😭😭😭 out of the blue-my hands hurt like someone smashed them using a hammer. It was extremely painful just to make a fist. The ring finger on my right hand would not bend without the feeling of bursting. On the left hand it was my pointer finger screaming at me.

So I went from Yippee, yay, to OUCHWHY? within a month or two? Can’t remember. But I started back taking the pills😩

So that my vitamin D drops emptied, I started too take a teaspoon of cod liver oil and my magnesium and my glutamine sulphate and drink more water for about six weeks before the pain subsided.

I can at least make a fist, with a tiny bit of pain in my ring finger my left pointer, still feels a little swollen——we won’t do that again !! rheumatoid arthritis is nothing to play around with. I guess I have to take all that stuff forever, the pain is too intense now without taking the stuff. Hey I saw a movie once called “The stuff.” Was it with young Scott Bloom.

Need to sleep.

JOINT EASE

I take two everyday, and my pain has dwindled to clear ish. lol.

Joint ease bones not marijuana lol.

MY FIRST EDITION PHOBIA THE AFTERMATH

Hello to my great full respected readers. I am always pleased when you enjoy my silly thoughts. Thank-you.

I know it has been a while that I have blogged, but I have been quite busy, trying to edit a book I have written in 1996, with all these children my daughter kept having, lol. There is no time!

Now that these children are the ages of 15, 12, 9 and 6, all soon, starting this month until September they all will be one year up. 🥳

Oh bother, that with the mother losing her head and off to find it and their father incarcerated, the full responsibility is still mine and great full they are in school allowing me to edit this one story out of several, at last.

Now, need I remind you my brain is not functioning as the term normal on any scale of degrees. Meaning I started out dumb and continued in that fashion until I had my own children forcing me to be the best possible teacher allowing them to grow in a safe environment and make them to be five times smarter than I could ever be.

Of course living in my shoes from day one, born in an outhouse in the winter, and given away at four months, kidnapped at 16-18 months, then from an orphanage by the age of three only to be molested from the age of three to seven. Then from the age of ten to fifteen beat where I ran away to the children’s aid Society. That was a bad place to live until my father fought getting me out at the age of 17 1/2 and never looked back.

I can tell you the only thing I cared about was not getting a lick en and what was for supper? Meaning, school meant absolutely nothing to me, I thought it was a punishment? So what I learned was people are extremely cruel, mean, bullies and only care about themselves. So I trusted nobody! And practiced for twelve years lol, to be the best spy ever. Didn’t help much.

By the time I was 15, I was raped, attacked, driven to the bush, <<<>>> I laugh at that now, then, it was scary as big spiders falling on you, scary as lightning hammering down right in front of you, scary as falling off a boat into shark laced waters. I’m just happy to be alive.

My first day starting a job at a hospital I was attacked being held up off the floor by a mad man, I took the wrong door. 🤓 I got the day off.

But all in all I have Heroed several times without a second thought, and always prevented with the triumph of God by my side or in my body strength and purpose.

On the serious side of things. I’ve been run over by horse and buggy run down three times before my mother stopped it, hit my car twice and here I am today. I believe I died once, and I know I spoke to the Lord-he spoke to me. I guess my mission is to raise these children.

Oh wait a minute . . . are you supposed to die when your mission in life is over or something there like that, if that’s the case I don’t want that mission I don’t wanna know my mission my mission better still be confusing and somewhere still out there.

I started writing stories when my children were in school, and me rotten at spelling and grammar and pronunciation and punctuation and a whole whack of things. 😌 the difference between (is and was). Oh bother. Present and past. But when typing my mind has no time for perfection, as I see in my mind as I tell…is, is happening now.

Anyways.

My first edition-PHOBIA THE AFTERMATH

It did all start with the black floater in my left eye causing me to always slapping out at NOTHING! Then I started wondering how to rid of it, and my mind went berserk, all by itself.

THE END

Until the FLASK DRINKERS

Working on that now.

AS YOU TYPE

Daily writing prompt
Which activities make you lose track of time?
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Do you lose track of time? I do, when I do certain things. I can guarantee hours, several hours have passed, like a trick is being played on me with something messing with the clocks. But no. The time reading on every clock in the house read the same with exceptions of a minute or two faster.

How is this possible that time slips away without a tiny hand tapping on my shoulder, “you-who, time to pee, or time to eat or time to give it a rest. It’s time to start supper or catch the bus. Hello?

But it all depends on the activities keeping me in this trance of time loop. Where there is nothing concerning time. What time? Time for what? Forget the time. I’m having a good time or I would spend no time.

Oh boy changing a room around has no bearings for time. Before I, know it, It’s getting dark out and I am close to finishing? When all along it did not seem that long a time. But in the end the whole room is washed and clean and changed. I got all the time in the world. Lol

Then the most silliest thing ever. Getting ready to leave the house for an event. I kill time. I cause time. I exploite time. Then I have to find time to straighten up the clutter I just created looking for the correct clothing just to walk out the door. There is no time left . . .RUN! “You missed the bus again.”

I can’t say cooking and dishes and tidying up, I’m fast at that. Possibably an expert by now, starting at the age of nine, no time wasted at all.

Okay, The master activitity killing any time given me is typing.

As you type as I type, time is not a factor or a reality. As the matter of fact it is the last thing on my mine or not at all. Before I know it, it is bedtime. LOL. Not all the time. But pretty darn close ot it.

AS YOU TYPE, do you lose your mind and all time? I do.

WHAT IS HAPPINESS

What could you let go of, for the sake of harmony?

Harmony is the other way around for me. I could never get rid of anything for the sake of happiness rather gain something, for the sake of happiness.

Everything I have I cherish right down to the jar of paint sitting on the floor, these are my prize possessions makes me happy to see it still sitting there.

Fly? Even the fly floating dead in my glass kettle puts a smile on my face I got to see it before I drank it. Tiny little fruit fly. He needed water. Well makes me happy he got all the water he needed, floating in the ocean of no return rather my face.

Let me tell you though. For absolute harmony it would be additions. I would need additions for absolute harmony.

I smile at everything in my life whether it’s pesky or that jar of paint on the floor.

I’m surrounded with love, complete harmony. My extended happiness would be addition. And addition to what you may ask, addition to my home a larger home. Space. We need space.

I was given the unexpected honour of taking care of four abandoned children, so the only thing to complete this sake of harmony clearly would be addition to this small home.

Yes, this addition, would be complete harmony.

Oh, but wait a minute . . .As she smiles.

I did however get rid of a husband finding complete harmony. Phew!!!

It seemed like I became blind one day and there after, believing I accidentally married my father? Uncle? Brother? My life was not my life anymore, I lived in fear wanting therapy. 

(Do this, do that,

you can’t do this, you can’t do that?

What do you mean friend? You don’t have friends!) Then things progressed to the bad.

Getting rid of an abusive Bully gave me great harmony. 

WHAT IS RIGHT WHAT IS WRONG & RULES

On what subject(s) are you an authority?

Subjects by authority eh.

Well, being raised with eight other kids learning the difference between right and wrong was taught by leather belts, sticks, hands and knuckles, with rules never to be broken henceforth we were subject to authority.

Being raised up like this until the age where you are now to old to get hit, of course adding to that fact, the rules are set and the difference between right and wrong are inevitable enough you don’t step outside of the learning. But now for the people around you?

Oh bother. It’s never a pretty sight.

BLACK CAT ON THE ROAD

I have seen a black cat on the road.

I was driving along when out of nowhere a Black Cat ran across the street in front of my vehicle. Of course this sent a shock wave through my body like someone dumped a massive tub of ice cold water on my hot head.

I did not kill the cat, I did not go off the road. But my face went from just being me to that of someone just jumping off a nail yelling no OUCH! But whispering, “awe a black cat.”

Then my mind spewed out superstitious quotes, “if a black cat walks in front of you, something bad will happen. If you walk under a ladder someone will get hurt. If you say Bloody-Mary three times in the mirror-she will get you and kill your friends.”

Then Still driving and thinking about that cat, my head followed this house at the end of the road. Well I could not help but to say, “That’s a stupid place to put a house. Anybody can drive off the road right into the living room or what ever it is.”

Then I thought a bit about the cat and thought, As if. No such thing. I continued onward to the store.

In the store I got what I needed paid, got back in my car and headed home.

Is it the end? NO On my way home lots of red lights and trucks and a police car or two? Were all outside that stupid home at the end of the street.

Did I do that? Was It The Superstitious thinking? Or was it that Black Cat on the road?

So am I superstitious? Na I walk under ladders SOMETIMES lol and the roads were icy that night, It was winter.

Oh yes, drop a fork a woman will visit, drop a knife a man will visit.

There is another saying but I can only remember the ending about kissing a fool. They are all old wives tales anyway or coincidences.

Daily writing prompt
Are you superstitious?
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ACHIEVEMENTS

What is something others do that sparks your admiration?

Achievements

Everybody anybody as long as they have tried and failed, and tried again finally achieving their goal. I have great admiration for them.

I actually have tears of joy. I wonder if it’s because my childhood or even my adulthood I didn’t get to achieve much of anything. I was too busy doing other things that or not given the opportunity to even try.

I mean, dirty, dancing for Pete sakes just because she was able to run and jump up into Patrick Swayze‘s arms. She achieved what she has been trying so hard to do, and I had great admiration for that, and I cried I’m a sucker for admiration and achievements.

It’s a Marvel, and a great wonder to witness somebody’s achievements., sending me waves of admiration, except for the fact that it always makes me cry tears of joy .

The End

SHORT AND SWEET

What technology would you be better off without, why?

Technology is becoming increasingly damaging to society in a way that we won’t need to think for ourselves.

Not sure about anyone but myself, about this Grammarly stuff and now this AI, nothing is real. There will be no need to think for ourselves. Nothing can be called original!!

I myself am way better off with out this nonsense, I prefer to think for myself, creating wonderful ideas, making this answer short and sweet.

Making mistakes is a huge part of life.

Thank-you.

The End.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

What’s the hardest decision you’ve ever had to make? Why?

Sometimes decisions are not as hard as we think they are, or we make them out to be. I love you so much that’s what made it hard to leave thee.

You had so many girlfriends, you said I could never be your friend yet you married me, why?

Hmm, had known this, I would not have married you, but I loved you.

I loved you so very much, so it made it hard for me to run away-this the decision I made at the age of 23-made it hard for me, but you didn’t love me and like you said, you thought it was a good idea at the time.

Well now, that made the hard decision a little easier for me so I ran away, but still waited for you to come for me. You knew where I was.

Yeah well, not 23 anymore.

We all make mistakes in life, but do we learn?

OH THE WONDER OF IT ALL

What is your favorite season of year? Why?

So, picking favourites are we. A favourite season of all things. I’m quite sure many people have one best time of year in them, but not me. Why?

Let me tell you why I cannot choose pacific likeable season of the year.

Here we go, Winter. I love the snow so sparkly white, with a beautiful hue of glitter when the sun shines. It’s just so picturesque. it’s a glory to see. But then near the end it gets so dirty, not a pleasant picture to gander. But homes with their Christmas lights and decorative sights are wonderful to see.

Then spring hits. Yippee. Actually, 😤 ! Not only is the snow melting and the birds chirping, while shoots are popping out of the ground and buds appearing on branches-beautiful sights to see, the wind is damp and so cold. And this Spring is bouncy-rain, snow, warm, cold, back to rain, snow, and so on, right into June-hot, cold, rain, rain, damp cold rain! Stop it- I love planting vegetables and fruits in the spring, watching everything grow.

Then awe summer. No coats or boots, no hats or scarves, but heat! It’s nice to be finally warm and in light clothing. It rains but it’s warm. Summer, the children are home. No more getting up early to ready them and make so many lunches. We get to just walk out the door into the sunshine without boots, splash in the water and make mud-pies.

And then fall. It’s now a welcome for the cooler weather after all the heat pouring down on us. We get to harvest and watch the leaves 🍁 turn beautiful colours on the trees. Then laugh as we crunch down the street upon the fallen leaves 🍂 as we prepare for Halloween, so much fun carving pumpkins.

So as you can tell I can’t have a favourite season and you know why.

THE DAY I WAS BORN

You’re writing your autobiography. What’s your opening sentence?

The day I was born the frosted cold wind swirled its way around my mother like wrapping cotton candy around its cone, as she made her way to the outhouse close to ten feet from the house.

Quote: I thought I had to have a good shit. Unquote. But in its stead, I was born.

Quote: I took my clothes off and wrapped you up so you wouldn’t freeze to death.

Here I am.

THE END.

MY TOES ARE IN THE WATER

Tiny Crab
Canoeing not me.

My toes were in the water when I spied this tiny crab. Lol believe it or not…my mind sank down to my toes getting pinched! Of course I giggled these tiny crabs couldn’t hurt a fly. Besides, they were afraid of me.

While I was playing in the water the others were canoeing, not me…freaking rocking back and forth? No way was I staying. I got out. My fear of sharks happens to be grater than me. Oh bother.

The thought of swimming across to the island seemed quite appealing, but how would I get back?

DAYS GONE BY

What historical event fascinates you the most?

Quite the question when so much has happened, what historical event fascinates you the most-there’s so much back there that has fascinated me, I don’t have a most.

To step back in time for several hours per century without dying in the process would be out of this world right? It would be groovy man. But at the same time during any of these Centuries, at what point in time do I stop. After all, a hundred years has many changes happening almost every ten years.

What is year one? Cavemen poking each other, carving out images on rock walls, grunting, inventing fire? I would really like to walk among the neanderthal just for a few hours. I love rocks. I love the forest, and sometimes I don’t feel like talking just poking and grunting.. I imagine the scenery was probably beautiful and fascinating to walk among with land mountains untouched.

Then the Mayans and Egyptians wow I wonder only because there were no trees with the Egyptians. It’s just all hot sand and the Nile river. It would be cool to see how they made pyramids, where they came up with massive stone. Whereas the Mayan were underground-was it cold, they were a smart people, they came up with a Calendar, and the Egyptians read the stars. It would be fascinating to spend time with each of these people without being murdered for any reason which would please their GODS.

The days of the Vikings and pirates living on the waters all the glories about the lands they got to see, that’s all fascinating, but I wouldn’t want to be there. I have this phobia about sharks. So as fascinating as I find the Vikings and pirates out on ships?, sharks!

Oh my gosh… Indians, and Cowboys! Geronimo, Pecos bill, to live in teepees, log cabins, to shoot arrows to ride bucking horses, learn how to make wigwam’s sing, like Pocahontas, ride with Doc holiday and the gang, robbing trains…an hour in each of their shoes as long as I wouldn’t get skinned alive or hung from the highest tree, it would be freaking awesome to dance around a fire and or brawl in a bar because they didn’t like my sing while laying on the piano. As for the clothes? Wow, the buck-skin the natives wore with their headdresses and beads so beautiful, and the dresses and funny feathered hats the women wore, with their tiny umbrellas as they walked through dirt down muddy roads, being covered with wet muck as the horses went galloping past. Yeah I would love to stay an hour each.

Then, what about hanging out with pretty boy Floyd or Bonnie and Clyde or Mad dog whoever he is, Casa Blanca, and all them bootleggers? I wouldn’t mind being there learning how to bootleg, well make it anyways. All the gagsters with their Gatling guns, gunning down whom ever they wanted, in black suits with black hats-say what are you playing at?

To be on the titanic what a fascinating boat they made that out to be, but I don’t want to drowned…oh, they built a ship titanic to sail the ocean blue and they thought they had a ship that the water couldn’t go through but the good Lord raised his hand said the ship will never land was sad when the great ship went down.. nope, no thanks, even though it was a fascinating time. Makes me actually think of Tom Sawyer and Mark Twain fascinating era in deed. But if I did spend time there, I would help Tom white-wash the fence, lol then go play. Rather get into trouble..

No wars for me ever, no slavery, no religion no breaking nations apart. None of that fascinates me interests me moves me, none of that. I don’t want to be among the pilgrims with the plague with killing off natives to steal their land. Nothing fascinating about that era. None of that should be in history or have happened but it has and I am not interested in ever visiting any of that ever unless of course…I could change it all. Bahahaha.

And cool Daddio Beatniks, snapping their fingers in stead of clapping, talking their talk with their poems, in beats and rhythm. A funny bunch these people were. I only got to witness this stuff on TV television programs-Beatniks’ we’re out there, way out there. Then you had hippies. I wouldn’t mind being a beatnik for an hour long as I didn’t get hurt or being a hippie for a while as long as I didn’t do drugs and die or get beat up by people who didn’t like hippies, or get caught up with Charles Manson and his followers.

Yeah, history is fascinating. History is a wonder…just seems that it’s all a creation from somebody seeing pictures on the wall for the early part of it, which of course causes one to question wanting to go see for themselves. It’s all amazing with glories and fascinating stories, I wouldn’t know where to go first with all these days gone by, same as what fascinates me the most?

The End.

History. It’s all a systematic study and documentation of the human past anyway so…Imagine if we were never told about all this past history, what then would be fascinating? 🤷‍♀️